A little clarification is in order.

@Sam Lupin, I'm sorry if I worried you. I have been working pretty hard to eat healthy (granola bars are my current vice).
I want to lose weight by exercising and eating right, and my new job allows me a free gym membership.
Now, usually I'm so tired from my day (which is only five hours, so I don't know why I'm always so tired...) that I take naps in the middle (I work 7-9 and 3-6) and go to bed super early. So I'm trying to find time in there to work out. Hopefully I can get my life together and work out in the in-between times. I would like that a lot. I miss being strong and I miss running.

I hate running.
But I miss being able to run without the pain of shin splints.


The struggles of being fat.

Well... I figured it out.

The answer to my recent bout of sadness is quite obvious now.

Thanks to the steady stream of blood gushing from my... Well, you get it.




I would really like to lose some more weight soon. Yes.

I'm very sad.

I don't really have a whole lot of words right now.
I just started a new job and I have no idea what I'm doing.
I hate living with my parents.
I hate not being in college.
I feel very much alone.

Basically, with this job, I ended up with a position that puts me in charge of an entire before/after school program. So I have to make all the lesson plans and themes and do all the paperwork and I wish that I had been hired for the lower assistant position because I have literally no idea what I'm doing.

Nothing I do is ever good enough for my dad.


I miss my friends from college. I feel like I don't have any friends here. The people I work with are nice, but I want to go back to when things didn't matter and I could just live how I wanted.


I hate everything about myself.